“At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we than we think we can.” – Frida Kahlo
Hello lovelies! I’m so sorry it’s been awhile since I’ve written, I’ve taken a little step back from blogging and social media and such, just focusing on life, and myself, and my mental health. Sometimes, I can get too caught up in all of it, and realized I needed to take a little step back. This is just a little life update, as I have some other fun blog posts planned coming up!!!
I turned 23 a few weeks ago!!! Ah, so crazy. 22 was a wild year. It was filled with some incredible highs and some horrible lows. During my 22nd year of life, I worked 2 jobs, an internship, and graduated college. Graduating college was probably one of the biggest feelings of accomplishment that I’ve ever had. I got my BA in human development and a minor in dance, and it feels amazing to be done with school and have my degree in my back pocket. I went on two amazing trips to Tokyo, Japan, and New York City. I met more of my incredible family in Japan and got to explore NYC in a whole different way this time, just hanging with my brother and attending some pretty cool meetings. I continued working at the job that I love more than anything, my friends and I did some really fun, awesome things throughout the year, I got to work on my blog and write more than ever, and I reestablished my faith with a strength I didn’t know was possible. There were so many good things this past year, but it was also one of the most trying years of my life. I went through the most devastating breakup and heartbreak that I have ever gone through, we had some horrible family health scares, and most recently, we just found out our beloved, sweet puppers of 13 years has been diagnosed with cancer. 22 was great but it was also so so rough.
As I’m writing this, I’m struggling to find the exact words to express how I feel. I am so thankful and feel so incredibly blessed for this beautiful life that I’m living. I pray and thank God every single night for the amazing family and friends that I have, my sweet fur babies, my super awesome job, my health, and my strong heart. I’m going into 23 a much much stronger person, a more confident, more loving, more positive, happier person than I ever thought possible. I am focused on spreading love and light and positivity every single day. That is my main initiative, and while I’m still human and make mistakes, I strive to follow this every single day. I’m not going to lie, my doggers cancer situation has taken over my thoughts, every moment, since we found out and while I’m doing the best I can to not think about it until we know more answers, it’s all I can do to help from breaking down and crying.
I’ve been tested and tried in life, and gone through many different situations, as most have, and I think the biggest thing that I’ve learned is that I’m so much stronger than I ever thought I was. I’ve loved and I’ve lost. I’ve gone through trials and tribulations, and every time I think it’s going to wipe me out, with time, faith, and patience, I get through it and become stronger for it. I’m so excited to be going into 23 with the experiences that I’ve had. I have so much excitement about the future and what is to come and while I don’t know exactly what lies ahead, I know it’s going to be amazing. I know it won’t be smooth sailing because that’s not what life is about, but I know I’m always going to get through it was grace and strength and a heart full of love. God has a funny way of making things work out in the strangest and most unexpected ways possible. He knows exactly what is right for each person and has the perfect timing.
As I mentioned before, my biggest life initiative is to spread more love and light. There is so much of it in the world, but there’s also a lot of darkness and I think that if each and every one of us could do our part in creating a little bit more positivity, we could make such a difference. Life is difficult and you can never truly know what someone is going through, but by being kind and showing love and patience and grace, someone that is struggling can feel like they have someone to lean on during tough times. I’ve taken a little step away from blogging lately because as much as I like to think I’m one of the most positive and happy people, I’ve needed to focus on my own mental health. Certain situations have occurred that have temporarily tempered with my happiness, but I’m back on track and looking forward to every beautiful day in this life that we are given. We rise by lifting others, so let’s focus on our own happiness, then using that happiness to help others rise!!
“Never get tired of doing little things for others. Sometimes, those little things occupy the biggest parts of their hearts.”
MAYA KEIKO LIVESAY 